[bluebird]

new to this .started drinking heavy about 20 years ago.got worse and worse.got drunk every night for 14 years.then gave up with the help of aa for 4 years.
convinced myself a 2 years back that i could drink sensibly.but ive just got worse and worse.getting plasterd every night again.
this is my first day back off it and i feel like death,sweating shaking.off to an aa meeting tomorrow going to give it my best shot again.feel so disapointed with myself.when i look back i relise how good those dry years were,and i want it back.