hi
hi everybody hope u r all well, I am on a big downer at the moment i just keep bursting into tears feeling so sorry for myself part of this is caused by bumping into my mother yesterday and she asked me what i was going to do about a job i said that i might get on the train and go the next town and join an agency to get a bit of different work experince .Her reaction was why dont u leave town now move out. This has made me feel like shit and not wanted, i always knew that she didnt want me anyway her reaction to me all my life has been work out the answer for yourself which i have managed with the help of the bottle, i feel as if i have been kicked in the head so alone and sad am crying my eyes out now but i have nt had a drink day 46/47 dont know lost count af.She did nt say oh u look good or nothing like that why am i bothering i feel at the moment am really down and hate feeling like this so if u could make me laugh i would appreicite it, this computer still cant spell.Hope this is just a phrase that i can get through without a drink i dont want to give in.
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