[Eliziby]

I'm not a beginner but an oldie that gave in when the going got too tough and was right back where I started and was there for several months before coming back. It's as hard if not harder the second time around to part with the love affair even when you know you can't keep going on like this. My advise is to fight those demons, bumps, humps, whatever you want to call them, with everything you have in you and don't quit frequent visits to this site as I did. Like me, you may have feelings of regret, remorse, failure and guilt not to mention thinking of how far I could be now had I toughed it out. God bless you, and hang in there.