If you've been stressed by the changes in your life and little things are making you cry, maybe you NEED to cry. I had two of them last Sunday and have felt better since. Also, I think we adjust to change more slowly than we like to admit, and sometimes it takes a while to really integrate changes into our lives. Sometimes we can't be "over it" in just a few weeks. You might be going through a "reactive" depression that's just related to life events (as opposed to the "chemical imbalance" kind of depression" we commonly think of) I think so many of us with alcohol problems use alcohol to mask or numb our feelings, at least I know that I did--for me, learning to deal with them again is a whole new thing.

Are you open to talking more about what some of your stressors are? Don't want to pry, but you can do it on the forum or send a private e-mail if you want...

I don't know if the topa is making you weepy. It makes me more mellow. I think I have more access to my real feelings, although that can be a little uncomfortable at times.
I think drinking makes me more emotional and erratic at times, although I use it to relieve stress. Doesn't make much sense, does it?

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