Thank you so much for your help last night. I made it through, thanks to you all and to my wonderful buddy Ann, with whom I've developed a great relationship over the last few weeks! I dug in my heels, took a hot bath and SCRUBBED my body soft with my new loofah (vanity again, ha!) I must admit, however, I was shaking and scrubbing at the same time, it was really hard.
But I DID IT! I knew how bad I would feel this morning, how disappointed I would be with myself (and how I would disappoint you all), so I just stood my ground and told that demon to get lost.
I also started the Campral. I figure I need all the help I can get!
But this morning, the joy that I felt, waking up and knowing that I hadn't had a drink after all, feeling great, was the greatest high of all, much better than the buzz that I would have gotten with a drink or 6. How many times have I had that feeling, waking up and crying, knowing that I had once again screwed up and was going to pay for it dearly for a day or so? I felt so proud, so good, and I wanted to share it with you all. Thanks to you I feel that I'm getting a grip, analyzing the situation beforehand and being able to handle things so much differently than before. You all are literally saving my life, and I'm so thankful that I've found this site and all of you (and especially to you, RJ, for having the courage to research and then publish your book...).
Today I went out and bought a new pair of earrings. Don't even have the money to spare for that, but I did it anyway, cause I felt like I deserved it! And tonight, same time, same place, no cravings.
I'm really convinced that if we follow the program and keep talking to each other, and take it ONE DAY AT A TIME, we can stay on track and beat this sucker down.
So when the Cravings come, y'all just holler... hope I can be as big of a help to you as you all are being to me.
Hot damn! It's working!

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USAnne