I understand your frustration. I feel like I've let myself down a couple of times since starting this program too. A couple of (almost) random thoughts about it:

-- It helps to take some time and remember why you are doing this. To sort of "recommit" yourself to the process, no matter what it takes. Decide that this IS going to work for you, and that you'll stick it out. "Don't give up if you slip up."

-- I think the meds, supplements and hypno definitely help, but we are so used to thinking about drinking that it takes a while to retrain ourselves. It can help to distract yourself with other activities during times you know you'll be tempted to indulge. Plan to see a movie with a friend. Go for a bike ride or a walk. Start a project. Get a new hobby. Anyway we have to find ways to fill our time that used to be filled by drinking. It's important NOT to isolate.... that is one of our tendencies as problem drinkers, and it only makes matters worse. Three things that I have found helpful: 1. Being around other (sober!) people. 2. Talking about it. 3. Physical activity.

And kudos to you for coming online and sharing how you feel. Many of us have been there and know how frustrating it is. Hang in there, and good luck to you.

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mikeupnorth