CS04, I'm sorry I couldn't help you last night. I posted just before going to bed. I hope you're doing OK.
Yeah, lying (lieing?) is easier than the cold truth, even here where we share this problem. I went AF on the first try in Feb and March, had a couple of glasses of wine in April. Now I'm up to a rate of probably 4 glasses per week. I don't drink most days. My binges were mostly on Sunday afternoons. There is usually wine in the house, but my husband keeps it locked up (we both want it that way). He left town on a Sunday am, and I asked him to leave out a bottle because a friend of mine was maybe stopping by. I opened the bottle when I got home from church, and had consumed 3/4 of it by the time by the time she arrived. I just wish I could figure out why I am compelled this way. I also have had thoughts with increasing frequency of going to the store to buy a bottle of whatever. Many days I have no cravings, but some days they are really strong. So thank you for listening and all of your posts. I keep coming here and trying to figure this out. I don't feel I'm a heavy drinker, I just want this to be under control.
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