[vlad]

Wow, here we are on the 30th June - this will be 6 months for me with no slip ups, OK I've had a couple of occasions were I felt I've drunk a little more than I wanted but nothing major... Major for me means drinking so much I throw up, can't walk or fall unconscious!

I would normally have a couple of beers tonight, but I would like to see if I can resist and go AF.
(You drink on a Monday??? Disgusting...) Sorry, but that was somebody's reaction to my drinking habits once.

My current moderation plan goes

Mon - 2 beers
Wed - 2 beers
Fri - 2 beers
Sat - 2 beers, 2 double vodkas (I like my vodkas and Sat is the one day I allow myself them)

Hey, that's my plan, it's interchangeable though, for example if I don't drink on a Monday, I allow myself a drink on a Tuesday. It doesn't always work however, sometimes it ends up: Mon - 2 beers, Tues - 2 beers, Wed - 2 beers, Thurs - 2 beers, Fri - pub 2 beers, 3 double vodkas, sat - 4 beers, sun - 2 beers...oops. And sometimes if I've succumbed to buying a bottle of vodka it goes 1 beer, 4/5 shots of vodka every night.

Tomorrow will be the 1st July, I've decided I really need to get fit so I intend to take a walk, swim and cycle each week. We've also ordered a WiiFit so can't wait to get on that. Also I want to try and get back into doing 'daily devotions', (i.e. I read my bible and pray a bit every morning). I just bought a book 'No Ordinary Man' for a £1 so I'm going to read something like a page a day. Not being funny but my heavy drinking really did trash my relationship with God on my part, I don't mean God fell out with me - He never left my side, he was still hanging on to what little sense I had left!

There are 2 birthdays coming up towards the end of this month and that means I'll be up at the mother-in-law's that weekend. She drinks a lot and always buys a crate of beer in for us so here is my incentive for a screw-up this month (although last time she gave us the money to buy it ourselves so we were able to buy less).

Anyway, here's to modding for July!!! I'm going to log my success (and / or failures if any!!!) here each day, oh and any daft dreams I may have - woke up this morning realising that yet again I'd had another dream about guess what, VODKA. I dreamt I was sat in my living room drinking it straight from the bottle. I had about 3 mouthfuls before I woke up.