[Sheepish]

Good Morning All BB'ers
I have been jumping in and out of this thread- mainly it seems so I can put that damn suit on- and today is no exception. After all of your helpful suggestions and encouragement I ended up drinking at my party on Sunday. I just went on auto pilot. I am not making an excuse, I was in full control of all of my faculties. I just did it anyway. What the hell is wrong with me. I didn't do anything stupid- had 5 beers over 6 hours or so but that is too much for me and still gives me the guilties. And lets face it- I didnt have fun because I was too busy beating myself up over it. It is very hard to come back and say this to you all AGAIN. Maybe I don;t want this as much as I say I do? But I DO. I know my life is better when I don't drink because then I don't have to worry about it. Period. I just need to do it but how??? The answer is JUST DO IT isnt it? I am sorry for the Monday morning downer.

Please know that I read all of your posts and your stories and kindness are what allows me to put this kind of (crappy, sorry) post down here instead of running away and hiding in the closet.

Thank you for letting me vent

Doggy Girl- good for Mr D and Ferguson. What happens next? ANother level?

Mame- I am interested in the hypno as well but have always been so skeptical... keep posting about it if you will...

Hannah - Have fun golfing with Hubby- holidays are great.

Happy AF day to all- and if you see me, I am the one in the fugly green suit. :(

- A stupid, stupid Sheep