I understand why you were feeling as aforementioned in this posting. I teach as well. End of term is THE worst! It is the same for teachers and students. There is an insurmountable amount of work to be done in a defined amount of time. Plus, everyone is cranky and irritable! I am sure you made it through without AL. I was still drinking heavily this end of term. It is hard to cope with all the stressors. I am taking the summer to clean up my act and stick to my guns come Fall. It isn't going to be easy. This end of term I had similar thoughts. I needed a clear head, so I cut back on the vino. You already had a clear head, so perhaps it was the drinker rationale stepping in? Those drinker thoughts... I should be fine w/out AL but I'm not. Crap. This just confirms I better not touch AL, period.
I hope you planned something nice for yourself this summer? I did but it didn't work out as planned. I'll figure something out for August. I'm going back to my old strategy of "small successes deserve small rewards." Hmm, I think I'll go to Paris when I reach 6 months of sobriety! Ha! That's it!!! One year I get a first class ticket to the moon!
Take care.
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