Hi All BBers
OK- DoggyGirl. Your congrats for me on Day 4 were slightly premature as I did go out Sat night and I did drink. I had 1 cocktail and 2 small glasses of wine with dinner. So- there goes my 30 days and back to square one. Which brings me to the question. Maybe I am on the wrong thread or????? I find myself capable of moderating for long stretches and then I will go through periods (recently) where I just kind of 'give up' and drink whatever/whenever I want. I feel like I SHOULD go AF 30 days as the book recommends- but then I am also capable of moderating fine on most occasions. (Although I have had my share of hangovers) and I do think alcohol plays a negative role in my life sometimes. So- Do I beat myself over this Sat nite 'slip'- because I didn't do 30 days? Was this a success because I moderated? I also don't know if this particular thread is the place to ask this question as I know that it is for those looking to abstain and I respect that.
Please do not get me wrong- ALL of you and your posts are very helpful. Hearing your perspectives gives me many things to think about.... I am just feeling confused.
I am AF today and plan to be tomorrow- would like to stay but I also fell coming here every few days and putting on that suit. I guess I need to figure out what the goal for me is... I am sorry to be so long winded. Thank you for letting me vent.
Have a great start to the week all
-a humble Sheep
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