[Beck]

Good morning everyone,

Good to see so many here today.

I don't think it is unusual for the long term absters to still ocassionally have that old WANT to drink. I've had my share but have managed to brush them aside though sometimes as Cindi said I just want a drink. I recognize it as such and move forward.

And to be honest sometimes I still think I can mod - my drinking history goes something like...binge drinking in HS, college, young adulthood...got married, kids job so really non-drinker for 10 years- though I did have the odd binge (2x per year maybe)....about 7 years ago when I was living overseas and not working I fell into social then social daily....then daily...and finally alone daily drinking...about 2 years ago (back to work) drinking 4-5 nights per week...9 months ago moved back to states and drinking started ramping back up again to alone daily. and 5 months ago I quit.

So really I harbor the fantasy that I can go back to the 10 years of non-drinking again. But realistically...

Anyway, i do believe we all pulled through.

Mame and Det, great chatting with you last night. Mame, I shall use my karma wisely.

Pamina, thanks for starting us off - you are doing very well. Many people say that the key to not slipping is in remembering your drinking past...the longer you are sober the more you tend to forget how bad it was...so drinking thoughts creep back in.

4tb, yep...it's just nostalgia.

Cindi, love your honesty.

Greenie, good to see you here. I think Pam means that those of us further down the path are letting her know what to expect. Much the way I feel about Char...

Off to have my day,
Beck