Chelle ~ welcome. Congrats on your choice to get yourself some help. You will find a great deal of inspiration and support here.
First of, please do your best to rid yourself of the negative thinking. The more alcoholics put themselves down, the more self loathing and self pity we have. And then we reach for the bottle to drown our sorrows. Please work on stopping this way of thinking as soon as you can. It's a vicious circle that we have all been in. If you learn to feel better mentally about yourself, you automatically want to feel better physically (and therefore cutting back on AL may be a little easier at that point). But this is only my opinion. You know deep down inside what is right for you.
This has nothing to do with being a mom, or getting married. Although these are wonderful motivations for you, just keep in mind that you deserve to be healthy and happy no matter what. And you can do this for you!
Please read as many posts as possible. You never know when that one line or statement from someone is just going to make something "click" in your mind.
When you can, try to set a realistic plan for yourself. Wanting to quit is not enough. You must put a plan into action. Many here like to recommend that you start with the book from here. You can download it instantly (only $13.00) and it is an easy, quick read. It explains the whole program and the supplements. The book along with this public forum of exchanging ideas and information is an amazing way to find your own way out.
Best of luck to you. We are here for you.
Love, Me
