[poohbear]

I guess Im just reaching out for help even tho I feel like I shouldn't cuz I haven't been on here in like forever. I do feel like I have tried everything and just keep going back. I went through rehab in April and stayed sober for almost 2 months. Here it is my anniversary and I had to go and drink. I just don't understand why or what drives me to do it. I just know that today of all days I should NOT be drinking - so why did I do it??? Will I eventually go to my grave with this question going around and around in my mind. When is it going to stop? How is it going to stop?

I guess if we had the answers to these questions we would be famous and rich huh?

anyway thanks for listening

hugs,

poohbear