I am the same as Beck...laughing on the outside, everyone thinking I am really funny, outgoing etc, but when I am on my own with a drink..thats when the real me comes out...depressed, insecure, no confidence etc.
I have also shared things here too, things I would never tell another soul, least of all my family, it really does help to offload and to be honest you will meet at lot of people who feel exactly the same as you do.
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The Butterfly
"The butterfly is ever more blessed than other creatures of flight.
Though all grace the heavens in the ecstasy of flight,
the butterfly has known the drudgery of the crawl
and the lonely confinement of the cocoon.
His new found freedom is richer,
wilder and more thrilling than life itself.
This is the beauty of recovery."
Author Unknown
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