Hi Freeme,
Your story is so familiar to mine. Divorce(s), loneliness, the stress of raising young children all alone, and the "freedom" of not being accountable and being able to drink without anyone knowing. My kids were to small to notice or know! And then the disease progressed and progressed. But there is hope and lots of it. This site has helped me tremendously and my re-commitment to studying the Bible and growing spiritually has brought me to the point where I have more AF days every month and are actually on day 9 AF today,9 consecutive days. A year ago I was drinking myself to sleep every single night.
Take heart - you have reached turning point. A lot of us use Antabuse and that helps the first couple of days or weeks.
I'm sending you love and support.
Jessie.
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