Dear Sweetpie,
I really can understand how you feel now, I'd been there before. For so many years I've been hurting my family which is love me so much. The loneliness and the regret I am still made me depressed until now, but I believe in one thing, If God still allow me to live for today I still have a chance to change myself, If God give me a chance I should give myself a chance to. Don't blame yourself to much, try to love yourself more than ever and allow other people to love you more.
I think this is also an advice for myself, I don't know whether useful for you, but I am truly hope we both can overcome this, Ok?
Love,
Suez
