Hi Sweetpea,
Just wanted you to know there's another voice out there in your corner. Nothing makes us feel more worthless than the people who are supposed to love us (and they do) speak to us in such harsh ways (the truth really does hurt). Usually they are telling us something we already know deep in our hearts, and I think that's where some of the pain is. While on the surface we're proud of our accomplishment, we know deep down we haven't conquered the beast and we're being called on it. I think that's why so many of us - including RJ - "hide" so much of our drinking. We're hiding from ourselves as well as the ones we love.
Sounds like you've got a lot of thinking to do. Maybe a long walk to let out some painful emotions and help sort out your choices is in order. Be kind to yourself. Know that we're all rooting for you.
V.
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