[Lucy Van Pelt]

OK... Don't even know why I am posting this, except I just don't know what to do, other than give up... I have been a member here for 2 years, and done litterally everything suggested. Before this, I have gone to AA, including about 11 years ago, when I did literally everything they suggested. I am at the end of my rope. I have tried everthing I can think of to combat this horrible disease. But here I am, after drinking waaaay to much tonight (a pint of hard alcohol) and I just don't know what else to do...I am clearly, I think, a functional drunk, not that this matters, but, it is what it is.

I don't know it anyone here has advice for me, but I am so frustrated, you have no idea.

I am feeling like..."ugh, just give up fighting this" because I have faught it so hard, for so long. I am getting tired of fighting it. But what are my options??? To just give in to being an alcoholic?? for the rest of my life???

OK so here is my issue.

Any advice would be great. My fear is I am no going to hear anything new...

Sorry to be down.

Beth