[Lucy Van Pelt]

Oh my God

I want to reply to all of you, but Madge, I feel I have to single you out. You are going through/have gone through chemo...and that is huge. You didn't say what your physical challenges are, but I hope/pray you are OK. Thank you so much for responding to me.

Thank you all who responded. I feel like I have no reason to complain...I am fortunate...I have a great husband, wonderful kids, etc.... In outside life, I am functional....very...phd...socially likable...bleh, bleh

Yet....with all I have...I am a complete loser when it comes to this....And I have been struggling for so long is is, quite frankly, disgusting.

I wont bore you with all I have done, but, boy, I have tried everything...really tried. So I am just sick of it..but what are my options??? I have none.

Ok...enough. I am going to bed. I have drank plenty tonight...as much as I have ever drank...So, now you all get what I am like when I drink...thoughtful, seemingly together, but I am drunk...and will wake up soooo sad about this tomorrow.

thank you to those who responded and those who are always there for me...

with love


Beth