Beth,
I wish that I could tell you something that you don't already know. You are my dear friend and I want so much for you to break free of this! I can also tell you that I can relate to how you are feeling. For years I wanted to stop drinking, I tried AA, I even did the whole 90 meetings in 90 days thing. I tried different meetings etc and always felt like I was the "only one not getting it!". I left most meetings and came home to a drink or 5! For close to a year, prior to coming here, my drinking became nightly and the worst it had ever been! I did not think that I could make this work either. But, some how, so far, it is working.
Beth, please do not give up on yourself. You and I have talked about this, and we actually came to some conclusions that seemed like there might be some clearity there. If you want to talk again, call me anytime. Whatever you do, do not give up on yourself. I believe in you, we all believe in you......It is time you start believing in Beth, Too!!
Much Love,
XXX Kate
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