Hi Amethyst26,
If you're nursing AND a single mom I'd say you have every reason to be tired, stressed out and anxious. They are both tough jobs on their own let alone combined.
I think though that you realize that unless you get your drinking under control that you're going to have neither. Please ask for some help.
Ah, 'tis hard being the nurse, isn't it? Asking for help. I know. Always caring for others, and doing a damn fine job of it too but, then, we forget about ourselves. Until we're in a muddle.
I spent 30 days in a rehab clinic, 500 miles away from my children, and let others take care of me for a bit. Leaving my children was SO very hard but I really, at that point, had no other choice.
I learned to take care of ME FIRST as well and I've been sober ever since.
I think it's the 12 step programs that say.. "at all costs" and I think that it's true.
Because eventually you'll get to the point that without your sobriety -you'll have nothing.
I agree with the others, start with your Family Doctor.
But for tonight..let me tuck you in, open your window and get the light.
magic xxxx
CS~ I'm glad you're less afraid
