Picking up from yesterday...
Diane, do you travel a lot on business? Will you be on the road again this week? I would be going to MWO withdrawls! I used to travel a lot for business and I must say I'm glad I don't have to do that any more! If I ever get on an airplane again, I hope it will be to go somewhere for VACATION that requires crossing an ocean.
Sheep - the flu is a horrid means to get AF their girl!!! Seriously - 4 days of the flu is a long time, and I hope you are feeling better today.
mwo2 - I type fast so my posts get long - my apologies!! Congrats on Day 37 now. I haven't really had too many drinking dreams but used to have smoking dreams quite a bit in my first few months nicotine free. The explanation I was given for those is that our brains WANT A FIX of whatever addictive substance we have given up very badly. If the brain can't get in the conscious realm, it goes to work in the subconscious and sleep realms. Obviously not an explanation in strict medical terms! The whole brain chemistry thing is facinating IMO.
Hi Lila of The Many Stars!!!
Liv - where do you find those caps with the holes these days? LOL the mention of those (good idea by the way!) brought up visions of hair salon scenes from the I Love Lucy era.
If I can find one of those caps, will you help me pick what color I should go with? (I of course can give you my brand and "base" color...) I'm such a nimnuts when it comes to girly girl things.
louise, welcome back to the wagon - it must be hard to support your sister from so far away. I'm glad to hear she is sounding a bit better. I'm sure she will have many ups and downs. She if fortunate to have such a caring person as you are in her life!! I hope you and Mr. louise come up with an awesome plan for your belated anniversary.
Mame - with all you have dealt with over the last few months it makes sense that you feel like you are starting over with all routines. I hope you can have some calm and orderly feeling time after so much chaos. (physically like with all the moving, and emotionionally!!)
Well, I think that BBQ was the first larger one I've hosted sober in a long long time. Facing Mr. Doggy's family totally sober was a good reminder to me of exactly how boring they really are. Well...that's a harsh way of putting it. I just have nothing in common with them. We have no hobbies or career interests in common. They all have children and some are at that "hoping for grandchildren" stage so catching up on all the niece / nephew activities is a big thing, and me and Mr. Doggy are child free, so after about the first hour of that it's really hard to relate to. (we have nothing against children - just didn't work out that we have any) The majority of the family is also very religious in a very evangalistic way, so there is always a big dose of that which I have a hard time with.
They are nice enough people - we just have nothing in common so the day gets really long. It is a small victory though - just acknowledging lack of anything in common as the issue. Previously (well under the influence of course), I would have been on the hunt for some reason one or more of them did something to piss me off as a way of explaining 1) why I'm not crazy about them and 2) why I felt compelled to drink my face off. So it feels sort of good to not get all dramatic and just be sober and acknowledge what's real and not such a big deal. I hope that makes sense - probably not LOL! I will say that the two littlest kids (ages 5 & 6) are QUITE entertaining. Oh the honesty of children! Dad got "fired" by one of them, and the other made a quite honest remark about "Grandma" that I won't even repeat here!
Well, I'm wrapping up the early morning "me" time and need to get ready to head to the golf outing. I'm sure the booze cart will be making the rounds a LOT today, but I'm not having any of it. I will be packin' my water and SF teas with fruity tasting stuff, and that is that. I really don't want to drink AF beer today either since I had a couple Saturday and again yesterday.....has too many carbs to become a daily thing for me - plus I don't like the symbolic thing....
Happy Monday and I hope everyone gets off to a GREAT start to an AF week and month!!
DG
Day 75 AFHF