Thanks so much
Thank you 1967 and Thankful for your replies. You give me backbone. My story is mostly behind me except for the drinking part, so I have to say that I am so humbled by the people who come here every day and post who are dealing with more immediate crises. I never had kids because my first husband was a child himself, and I wasn't ready to take on that responsibility with my second. I so admire all the mommas who are loving their kids and trying to be sober for them. Brown trouts, god love 'em. I love my mother, and for her, I have risen to heights I never thought possible, even though she did not protect me as a kid. Still, she gave me a foundation of loving that has sustained me. I used to watch her face lift when my dad pulled up in the yard after work, and I just knew I could never screw that up. Crazy, but true.
I want to be a positive part of this community. I never wanted to do AA, so I find it miraculous that this site is here. I'm failing tonight. Will have to start over AF tomorrow. Telling one's "story" is so difficult. I never wanted to be thought of as a "victim." Just reading all the amazing posts--what kind of wonderful people take on the "newbies"?--gives me hope. I am just so grateful, and I will give back, I promise.
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