Hi Ian,
You are hearing (seeing) alot of advice here. It's a great place to come.
But there are some realities. When we're alcoholics, we're not happy. Neither are the people around us. But we matter. We really matter, both to ourselves and them.
Will your wife be there when all is said and done? Maybe, maybe not. Sounds like she is going to be taking care or her right now and that's a good thing. SHE needs that right now and I am confident you want that too from just your words.
But now it's time for you. For Ian to be concerned for just Ian. The place you are in right now is not good. Period. But it is where you are. I highly suggest AA. The hardest thing to do is that first step into a meeting. And maybe that first one won't click with you so try another, and another and another. I happen to go to ao women's meeting and I swear, while there are tears and we are very serious about being AF, the laughter as we laugh at ourselves is contagious. WE UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL and have found hope in desperation......real desperation.
It will get better.
Keep writing and we'll keep helping at MWO. You can count on that.
Erin
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