Janice,
Moderating takes courage and confidence and it shows you have both when you are still able to recognize you may be slipping back into the arms of AL.
For me I believe the 20 years of drinking with 10 plus heavy, my brain is permanently hard-wired to be triggered by even just one drink. It is funny how I can accept that I can no longer swim the butterfly stroke, hit a golf ball 250 yards, eat chocolate cake at will and I need reading glasses to read the paper but I just can't quite get over the fact that I can't ever drink again!!
