OK. All right. Lets have a look at this. I soooo do sympathise with all you green fuglies, since stress/grief/worry/anxiety etc. is my favourite AL playground. And then he brings along his pals - despondency, lack of confidence and the 'sod it' attitude.
Loss and impending loss **IS** a BIG DEAL. It puts you on thin ice right away.
I agree with Louise. Even if modding were theoretically possible, for some people under certain circumstances, you don't want to start trying it when life throws a rough spot your way. 2 weeks AF is far better than 2 weeks slipping into a black hole.
I hear you, Mame, about having given so much of yourself. Indeed you have, good point. Time to start rebalancing that energy equation. The starting point is to accept that you deserve 'wellness'. YOU DO!! Then look at how you can give yourself wellness.Top of the list is AF, which will get stronger and more do-able if protected by sandbags. There are lots of those, from meds and supplements to support to protecting your boundaries to fun to healthy bits and pieces etc. By doing all of that we are stronger in the end when having to skate on thin ice. So pull out those stars and start planning!
Sothankful, well done on the 20 days. As you can read all over these boards, recovery brings its own challenges. All kinds of feelings can surface from the AL fog. Good on you for hopping back on and pulling out the tryptophan.
Louise, do feel sorry for yourself, it must be stressful. Eat ice cream if you must. That's what I wanted when my ex kept calling, til I turned the bloody phone off. Fancied a whole tub of it. Not peppermint, though, but Belgian Chocolate. Luckily I didn't have any in the house. I did have a low-fat vanilla stick and had to settle for that. Thank goodness for preparation, once again.
Which brings me to your comment, DG, though I can't remember exactly what it was now.
But the idea being that your family upset didn't lead to an AL but a food craving. When I read that, it was like reading my own thoughts, again (I love it when that happens on the boards, and it happens a lot!!) It took me a while to realise, since at first I was annoyed to be craving sweets. Until I woke up to the fact that my first response had NOT been to think of a bottle. YAY!! And the ex is an ex after all, and with good reason. Your brother, 'the Pope', is he the eldest? Family patterns can be very annoying, but hopefully you were able to get it out of your system and shake it off.
Marshy, thanks for the positive Monday vibes!
And Greenie, good going on the 8 weeks. Count them every which way, I'm doing the same.
Today is DAY 90!! In a few days, it'll be the official 3 months from start date. Then next week 100 days... Who would have thought it!