Caseaday posted THE MOST AWESOME post just after he finished his first 30. I will try to find it -- I don't know how to bump up posts, though. If you don't want to pour out the rum, then maybe give it to someone. Or take it to a party and leave it there "accidentally."
Someone on Oprah did something like your scrapbook thing called a "vision board." I have had a hard time restablishing goals for myself for some time now. Has anyone ever read Po Bronson's "What Should I Do With My Life"? it's also excelent -- has nothing to do with AL but helps us to listen to the "whisper."
Hang in there, Healing! Have some lemon water, and we'll raise a glass together tonight.
