Acadia,
Unfortunately, you do know the drill. Been there done that.
Take the supplements. I always recommend that. They truly do help.
The ALLOne is the core for me. I hate it but swig it down every day. When I travel and forget it, I can already feel by the end of the week that my body is missing it.
If you are afraid of withdrawals, go to a doctor. Get some Ativan or Librium to get through the first week. Bad withdrawals are nothing to sneeze at.
I am not sure if you tried the topamax before but many have great success on it.
I am taking Antabuse because of this particularly nasty propensity to cave at the least thing.
A friend suggested I take Campral with it and I have started that today. It did not "work" when I tried it before but I was also not abstinent while taking it. (You know that nasty propensity to cave at the least thing...)
Others have done well with Naltrexone.
In my opinion, keep working and trying until you find what works for you.
You did it before and I know from that, you can do it again. This time you may be able to deal better with a situation like the last one that led you back down the drinking path.
Good luck. and
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Cindi