[Janice]

Not doing so good. Weekend from hell. Seeing mam in that place was a nightmare - it was like she was in the middle of a mental hospital. Her physical and mental health is improving (she hasn't drank since May) and even she said "If I wasn't mad when I came in, I'll be mad when I leave!". The meeting went okay on Friday - nothing set in stone as far as mam's stay is concerned, taking it slowly but seeing her there over the weekend, its not right. What do I do? Friday was spent at the solicitors and the meeting. Spent Sat & Sun in the house sorting stuff out, cleaning, and taking stuff to the tip and cooking for my brother. I got home last night, I'm shattlered physically and emotioanally.

If I say I want her to go home, I know I'm saying "go on mam, go and drink yourself to death and make my brother's life hell at the same time" or do I leave her to rot in a carehome which is lovely and clean with caring staff, don't get me wrong, but mam is getting no stimulation whatsoever and desperately wants to come home......but then look what would happen if she went home........she would be rotting away in her bedroom. At least she is clean, healthy and safe where she is but she wants to go home. What do I do? Its all on me. Wha t do I do?? What would dad say>?

I've come home to an empty house. My husband stayed up north with his family (like he does every year for the last 25 years) and I resent that. Son is with him and daughter visting uni friends. So, I've come home and let myself down, let my family down, let my friends down. What do i do? I'll be talking to mam's social worker on Wednesday and I don't know if its fair of me to say I want her to go home when I live 300+miles away.

I'm supposing to be packing to go to New York on Saturday but right now thwe only place I'm going is the bottom of this bottle.

Help please.

Janicexxx

Janice