[Chelle12]

Hi Joemero,
I think it depends on the individual. I would personally find it really hard to be AF for 30 days, but willing to give it my best shot. I like the phrase 'one day at a time'.
My partner said to me last night after I finished my first AF day in months, that he was proud of me and that even if I only last 36 hours / 48 hours, then I shouldnt feel too bad and think that "well, I DID do it, and hopefully next time I can build on the AF time next time I try".

My reason for the AF day yesterday was a build up of a lot of crap that Im putting my partner and son through recently. My parents took my son away on holiday last week, and on one day of the week, my partner goes back to his own house for the evening so i was all alone. He ended up getting a desperate phone text from me that didnt make any sense. I didnt know where I was, he had to come down and keep ringing my mobile round the back streets to where I live to try and find me. Apparently I was sitting in a gutter in the pouring rain with a bottle of wine. I was drenched and close to hypothermia and screaming... It was awful, the strain I would have put him under.
Ended up smashing ornaments in the house because I was so ashamed of myself. I think Id had 3 bottles wine, and five pints that day...as well as driving home, though God only knows how I managed to drive home.

To me, one glass of wine is never enough so I dont know if moderation will be possible.
Best Wishes and Good Luck to you, whatever you decide.... mod or AF
C