[WildAtHeart]

Hi Frogz,

perserverance. Just keep trying to get back up on that bike. Maybe part of you doesn't want to succeed with the program because it feels like the alcohol numbs that pain and then when the program worked you didn't know what to do with the pain? That's the cycle, unfortunately. All you need is some tools and this site is definitely one of them! The greatest words that I read a number of times on your thread yesterday is that you must find a way to forgive yourself. Have compassion for yourself. That will help you move through the pain. Also, maybe talk to your counsellor about the books and workshops on grieving and death written and created by Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. I did one of her workshops and it transformed my life.

Stay strong!