Good Grief, I am an emotional mess. Nan, your post made me cry (again...I've been like this all day). So many things I don't want to acknowledge. You are right. I really do love him, but do I love myself...not so much. And I don't know why. (That's something I probably need to get to the bottom of.)
And no...I am not able to acknowledge my problem out loud, to anyone except all of you.
Frogz, I missed your self-loathing period yesterday. It's bittersweet to know that I am not alone with that feeling.
Starting, I am frightened. I am desperate for some control...I have a lot to prove, mainly to myself.
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