[4theboyz]

Sassy,

My advice is to take a deep breath. You have a lot of strong emotions going on all at once and probably your head is spinning from it all. Accept the fact that you have done some 'dumb ass' things that can never be taken back and move on - Sober!

Getting stupid drunk may seem fun to you at the time, but is *never* pretty for others to watch but they for one will remember it all even if you don't. Sooo, you have amends to make or at the very least you should now put all your effort into making sure that you for one never do it again or put yourself and (or your BF) in that situation ever again. Start by setting limits for yourself on what you do, when you do it and with whom. Build some self confidence in yourself and allow others to see some conscious changes in your behavior for them to be able to trust the new you in their presence.

Most crazy behaviors and actions can ultimately be forgiven, but it all starts with forgiving yourself and doing what's right for you first and then second for your significant others. Just admitting your mistakes opens up a huge door of opportunity to heal and recover from this.

Good Luck!

4tb