Hey There My Abtaining Friends!

How does that song go by good old Frank Sinatra..."Got the world by string sitting on rainbow"....and then POOF, someone comes along and cuts your string and pushes you right off your rainbow, and you find yourself standing there wondering what the hell just happened. Well you know what, pretty much since the day I started this program I have felt like that old Frank song mentioned above and I gotta tell ya it has been one hell of a ride, until yesterday that is.

I must admit quite honestly that I have not found this to be that difficcult. Certainly there have been moments that I have had to work harder than others to keep myself on track of course, but it has been a track I have so gladly stayed on that an extra walk, or an extra listen to the cds, or taking an extra calms forte didn't seem like a big or price to pay to "maintain the course". Well, all of this was quite true until yesterday when someone, who I thought by the way was a friend, came along and out of flipping nowhere cut my string, and pushed me right off my rainbow.

I must say I was MAD AS HELL!! I was being judged. (of course about drinking). I do not judge others, I never have, and so when somone stands in judgement of me it sure does get my dander up. So, to make a VERY long story short I found myself having to use every tool at my disposal yesterday to maintain my course because there was no way I was going to let this twit's judgements let all of my hard work of the last nine weeks go down the drain in a matter of hours.

So, I washed all the wood floors in my house, I cleaned the bathrooms, I did some laundry, I went for a drive by the lake with the windows down and cranked the song by Elton John "Bitch is Back"...you know the one..."Stone cold SOBER as a matter of fact", I went shopping and bought a new shirt, I bought myself some flowers, I helped my lovely daughter get ready for the prom, I emailed a good friend from here and poored my heart out....I simply kept moving!!

By the end of the day I was wore out! I was still mad as hell for being judged but, I was very proud of the fact that I didn't let the judgements, or the small minded thoughts of one person let me loose sight of my goals. It was not easy, I will admit to that. It took alot of effort on my part to keep moving and not buckle, but in the end it was well worth the effort I put forth.

Never, when I was writng to you all about obstacles yesterday and Friday did I see this obstacle of my own coming in such an overwhelming magnitude, and I must say it took me by surprise to say the least. But, I guess that is the whole thing about obstacles isn't it, you don't see them coming, they do take you by surprise, and you have to be ready to stand strong and face them and not let them shake your conviction. It is easier said than done, this I know, this I have learned.

So sorry for the long post this morning folks but truly yesterday was an eye opening experience for me and one that I wanted to share with you.

I do hope you all are not having such overwhelming obstcacles to contend with this Holiday Weekend, but if you are, stay your course and don't forget, we are here for support!!

CDS:
Subliminal, and Sleeplearning.
Everything else is the same.

The weather here is just beautiful and it should be around 85. I hope evryone has a GREAT day!!

Donna