Hi friends...fell off the wagon yesterday after fighting with my H about having sex. I told him I didn't want to and he got very upset and wondered if it was because I was having an affair or if I was gay. He said " A husband should not have to ask his wife for sex !! " He has been " patient " with me. I would hate to see what inpatient looks like. Anyway I was so agitated, frustrated after calling a friend for a Xanax ( without success ) I had a glass of wine to calm down so that I could sleep before my night shift. I feel like crap that I don't yet have a better way to deal with upset. I am going to see a counselor to rehash the whole childhood/young adult sexual abuse issue ....again. As with you O2M at times I wouldn't mind if he released himself with someone else. Anyway, sorry to ramble. My happy forward motion was abruptly halted yesterday. I start anew with all the inner strength I can muster. To all the newbies, may the source of your strength grow and grow and may your sorrows and weakness shrink to nothingness. Peace.
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