Hey guys,
Thanks again for your support.
I am sorry but after my last comment I ran away in shame, pathetically. When I read what I wrote, blaming my alcoholism on my sport, well I just couldnt handle that. I felt not only did I totally bullshit myself, but I was making a fool of the rest of you. I was expecting to come back and see a bunch of 'youre an idiot' comments, but Im glad I didnt.
Ive had my ups and downs, the best up was 17 days clean, the worst was the day after that....drinking 12 beers and a bottle of scotch. If I could blame my drinking on anything, it would be that I am lonely. I have a lot of good friends, I have a great job, and besides my drinking I am incredibly fit and healthy. But my passion for climbing is so much that I never, ever go out, ever... ie very single. I work during the week, and I train on the weekends. The only time I have other than work and training is with myself. Ironically I hate the clubs, so I wont ever go there. Ive just got into the awful habit of drinking alone to pass the time and/or take the edge off. Another great irony is I cant stand girls who smoke, because they are abusing their bodies... hah
I rode 112km today, and rewarded myself with a 12pack of beer. What kind of twisted logic is that?
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