[toughintexas]

Wally22, that was a great post, and I think it makes us all stop and think hard about our "habits". My hubby drinks too, not as much as I do tho, he used to, and one day about a year ago, said I'm going without for awhile, I'm tired of it making me feel not as great in the morning....he put it down that day and went 6 mos! He'd watch me drink, and have iced tea, he still lots of times will have iced tea if we are on vacation, and I feel badly ordering wine. He may have a tad too much, but he just goes to sleep, I may also, OR I may start crying over something, or I might pitch a fit over something, just be annoyingly repetative, loud, or pass out. He never goes on a binge tho, and the last year and a half, due to some really bad stressors, I have....he says..."how would you like it if I couldn't get up and go to work?" We own our own pharmacy, he's right, I'm lucky to be able to help and market our vet compounding and answer questions on hormone therapy for peeps, from home. He is getting sick of it, and he wants me to just be "normal" too....God, don't I pray to just be "normal". I may be able to after doing a stint like he did, he's never drank that much again, and can take it or leave it lots of times. He's told me he never wants to come home and find me toasted, it scares him. He doesn't want me to not be able to function. He is a wonderful man, and loves me, and I know he is right, and I know he's put up with alot of crap from me because I drank too much. He is older than I am by quite a bit, but he is very active and loves to do things, and can't stand it if I'm just a basket case of hungover dookie. I drank too much on New Years Day, and he was leaving here to go back home to TX, I'm staying here with our pups for awhile longer, and he told me he was worried about leaving me here. He said he didn't want to call and hear my voice sounding crocked. I got a gift cert. for some affirm laser treatments and special facials that I'd been wanting, and he honestly said..."if you keep drinking like you are, you aren't going to keep your looks anyway, so you aren't doing yourself any favors, maybe you should just save the money"...and harsh as that is...HE IS SO RIGHT....and it really hit home that he thinks that. I look in the mirrow when I've even had that one bottle, and I do look aged! I've done alot of thinking about that...I'm a proud person, and pretty cute, and I work-out, and I don't want to ruin my looks, health and brain any longer. Its just soooo counterproductive to everything. I am a cancer survivor, and I'm going to kill my liver off this way! I eat organic and very healthy, and then poison myself and pickle myself with wine! I heard him this time, and it made an impact. I'd never binged before, its very scary, I overindulge and then can't stop sometimes, and it goes on for days, no more!!! I am just on day 1 AF, and I'm looking forward to seeing how much better I feel tomorrow, even if its just being proud of myself for making it one stinking day! Great posts everyone, thanks!