Not so good yesterday on the AL:
Bac 60mg
Diazepam 7mg
AL 23 UK units :(
I did exactly what Greg recommended not to, I got carried away with the games, and was up till 4am. So, that makes one drink an hour (almost) for twelve hours - 23 UK units. Yesterday was a sad anniversary for me, so I almost felt like getting drunk for once. I don't have that feeling much anymore since starting TSM six months ago - rather I have fond memories of enjoying getting blasted, and sometimes feel like trying to do the same thing, even though the endorphin 'rush' is now gone, and I jut don't enjoy getting into that state. I used to love it, so TSM has worked me for me in that sense, I just have to work out the other stuff (particularly the anxiety).
The other thing TSM has done for me, which is a bit worrying, is make alcoholic drinks seem almost like soft drinks
*. They hold no more attraction than that, almost all of the time. In fact I'd rather have a soft and healthy drink, it's only the attraction of relieving anxiety that makes me reach for the booze rather than anything else.
Once I can solve this anxiety issue I'm sure everything else will fall into place
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* <edit> I should have explained my worry. The danger here is that once I start drinking I tend not to stop until I go bed. Being very much like soft drinks now, and also without the endorphin 'rush' which is kind of a sign that the drink's having an effect, I find I can drink beers far quicker than I used to, given the right circumstances.