Drinking Thinking

[greeneyes]

Janice, that is wonderful that you could see it coming and know what to do. Great analogy as well.

[retteacher]

Janice: I too thought I could mod but just can't. I haven't been drinking much but have been obssessing about it. I've decided Aug. 10th is my sobriety date. Let's do this together. Mary

[Frogzter]

Your honesty is more than refreshing to me! I have never been able to mod and would be deluding myself to think so. 120 days is astronimical to me and wouldn't know what it was like unless locked in rehab or somewhere such. You have given me inspiration and hope.

I joined a few months ago and was AF for several weeks then blew it big time. I spiral down a little further each time. I was too ashamed to even post here lately, but have been reading as it is a great comfort to know one doesn't struggle alone.

I wish I had your strength! You can do it again even better than before. Thanks for a post that brought me out of my shell once again!

All the best to you~

[louise]

Janice it is great you have been doing so well and that you recognized so quickly what was happening. Thanks for a great analogy!

[4theboyz]

Janice,

Moderating takes courage and confidence and it shows you have both when you are still able to recognize you may be slipping back into the arms of AL.

For me I believe the 20 years of drinking with 10 plus heavy, my brain is permanently hard-wired to be triggered by even just one drink. It is funny how I can accept that I can no longer swim the butterfly stroke, hit a golf ball 250 yards, eat chocolate cake at will and I need reading glasses to read the paper but I just can't quite get over the fact that I can't ever drink again!!

[Arial]

Great job, Janice!

I'm afraid I can't share the same success or strength of mind as you so I really applaud your foresight to jump right back on. I had been AF for 90 days and moderated well for about 6 months. Unfortunately I saw the slippery slope and chose to ignore it - I even stopped coming here as I didn't want to stop! - many reasons and excuses, but same end-result - right back to square 1. So today is the day I face up to it and start again. So impressed that you were able to stop at the top of that slope. Well done!

Arial

[Janice]

Thanks everyone for all your words of encouragement and support!! Arial, good luck today - make sure you come and say hello tomorrow on daily abs!! ( I remember you from last year!!)

love Janicexxx

[cpn1004]

Janice,
Great words and insight. Good for you.
Love and Peace,
Phil

[Sunbeam]

I am glad I found this thread, because it describes my experience. I kind of expected that if modding wasn't going to work, I would have fallen flat sooner. But now I am with Janice, staying AF because modding didn't work for me, and I WILL NEVER go back to where I was.

[startingover]

Janice , you are truly inspirational. I don't think I will ever be able to mod I have tried many times and it hasn't worked for me. For a while maybe but not long. It is great that you recognized your change in thinking early and did something positive about it. I applaud you. I would probably be making my excuses over and over again until I had reached rock bottom.