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[boozehag]

Absolutely after over 3 months with hardly any AL two glasses of wine on an empty stomach (by accident) and I was flying it...... I had 4 drinks and had bummed a ciggy from a stranger before my daughter got hold of me and abused the hell out of me and made me see sense. Thank god.
Before I could have had 2+ bottles of wine and still be standing and talking (rubbish of course) but still standing. I dont mean that I would have stopped drinking and went to sleep I would have kept going and going but it just hit me way quicker than previously. Wont be doing that again in a hurry.
BH

[Accountable for Me]

Originally Posted by ricecake

While i'm drinking i feel better. The next day i feel terrible! Anyone else out there feel this way?

That is the way I felt. I loved the feeling while drinking. I had my greatest thoughts and aspirations while drinking. I felt confident and ambitious while drinking. Nothing bothered me while I was drinking.

The next day each and every one of these 'so called' positive feelings were completely squashed with dread, depression, anxiety and a lot of the time feeling guilty and ashamed. The complete opposite of what I felt the night before.

Moderation can work for many people. We have some great people here who moderate very well.

I am not one of them. Too much of a die hard. I Like to drink to get drunk.

Welcome to MWO!

[Margoms]

I have found what Boozehag said to be true. When I know I'm going to be in a slippery situation and know I'll be drinking, like going to a party, I try to eat a small balanced meal before I even leave the house. When I'm hungry or dehydrated plus have "party anxiety" I get drunk really fast and just lose control. Now if I can only remember to follow my own advice!

[CS04]

I have noticed no change in tolerance. I was 10 days af in May, 21 in June, and a fricking mess since then. Sorry if that is not good news. I will get back on board soon. But nothing has changed for me in that regard; wish it had. I guess not enough time.

[TimeToChange]

Originally Posted by boozehag

Absolutely after over 3 months with hardly any AL two glasses of wine on an empty stomach (by accident) and I was flying it...... I had 4 drinks and had bummed a ciggy from a stranger ...
Before I could have had 2+ bottles of wine and still be standing and talking (rubbish of course) but still standing.
BH

BH,

I guess what I was thinking is that if I got drunk and stupid on 4 drinks instead of 2 bottles my social life probably wouldn't improve, but it would be a LOT better for my health.

[keke]

Dear ricecake, I too am trying to see if I can moderate. I think the brain chemistry has to change before this can happen. Why bother having one if you know it will turn into 4 or more? I know that I drink to self medicate. I'm not a doc, but your behavior is similar to mine and I know I'm trying to drown something so I drink more when I'm alone. (depression) Until I can get past that, I think it is probably better to be very diligent on the sipping at special occasions only. Thats my plan in the future. Right now I'm hoping the supps, cd's, and topa will start to work it's magic, which doesn't happen over night. Wish us both happy healthy journeys!!! KEKE

Update 7/31/08 A couple of years ago I found that I could drink quite a bit of alcohol and get a number of chores accomplished. So, I managed ok. Now I just get tired when I drink (at home) and have a hangover, so I could no longer use the excuse that I functioned better. This is what brought me here. I'd already gone through the wine is good for me excuse. This is my third time trying this program (the first at trying all aspects of it) and by far the most successful - mentally, spiritually, and physically. Tonight Al started talking to me cuz hubby left for the evening and this is when I would typically cheat. I ate and turned the computer on instead. There is alcohol in the house, but I don't want to let myself down. It is just too painful. Ricecake, Keep, Keep, Keep, trying. Keke