I just finally figured out that it is not for me, at least not now..................will get AF for A LONG time, at least til our trip to Utah...........that is in about 1 month, last year's trip was WONDERFUL, I was AF the entire time and enjoyed AND REMEMBERED everything!!! WOW, what a concept................
This past weekend, on the other hand (and the last one, in Miami, I don't remember much

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So, just for me I am saying it is at this time in my life not attainable....................this MAY change, esp if my life gets more bearable, but until then AF and HAPPY!!!!
love and hugs!!!
MA