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[july232007]

Mags,

All good thoughts. You can roll with this like a ship at a secure mooring. You are that, well anchored in a AF life.

Take care,

July

[SKendall]

Mags, I know it is tough right now, life has it's ups and downs. You are magnificent and you will get through this.

[retteacher]

Mags: I really look up to you so much for the many, many days you have been sober. Just reading that you love your sobriety so much is so very heartening to us that are in the beginning stages. Yes, you'll get through this. I'm glad you shared your thoughts...keeping them inside & hidden can't be a good thing. Mary

[1967]

I understand why you were feeling as aforementioned in this posting. I teach as well. End of term is THE worst! It is the same for teachers and students. There is an insurmountable amount of work to be done in a defined amount of time. Plus, everyone is cranky and irritable! I am sure you made it through without AL. I was still drinking heavily this end of term. It is hard to cope with all the stressors. I am taking the summer to clean up my act and stick to my guns come Fall. It isn't going to be easy. This end of term I had similar thoughts. I needed a clear head, so I cut back on the vino. You already had a clear head, so perhaps it was the drinker rationale stepping in? Those drinker thoughts... I should be fine w/out AL but I'm not. Crap. This just confirms I better not touch AL, period.

I hope you planned something nice for yourself this summer? I did but it didn't work out as planned. I'll figure something out for August. I'm going back to my old strategy of "small successes deserve small rewards." Hmm, I think I'll go to Paris when I reach 6 months of sobriety! Ha! That's it!!! One year I get a first class ticket to the moon!

Take care.

[louise]

I had someone say that teaching was like running a marathon race and the end of the year is like pushing to the finish.

[KatieSmiles]

Hang tough Mags!
You will make it through.
Hugs
K

[karbihere]

I have to agree with you Mags ... as I sit here with 11 months sober I have never been so miserable in my life. my relationship sucks. my seventeen year old has no resepect for me drunk or sober and by his actions and words would love nothing more for then me to fall off the wagon so he can SEE TOLD YOU SO , I feel alone angry, and ready to jump out of my skin, cant seem to smoke enough cigs to calm me down, but I know that I am not alone in this battle with my sick head, I just keep trying to follow my heart

[bestlifeldms]

OH Mags! You have always been such an inspiration! This time will pass and you will be stronger because of it. I am a long ways behind you, I know. I have found out that just because I don't drink does not mean that I don't have crappy days or spells in my life. These are the times I would have really given it hell (with booze)! I'm there today, too. Really ticked at one of my boys, and now hub and I are disagreeing (actually fighting) because of it. But, these are the days that life are made of. I know that drinking won't help. Because of good examples like you! Thank you! Have stregnth and take care, Best