15 months ....but...

[Mags]

Hi there Heavenly

I've been AF longer than you have now and I know EXACTLY what you are feeling. I think I have written about it at least once right here on Long Term Abs. All I can say is you MUST not give in. You must hang in there and not drink. PM me, I'll send you my phone number.

You can go along for weeks and months and feel great and know you'll never even want to drink again and then suddenly SLAM, it can just hits you out of nowhere. And it's tougher to say No because you think you've got this thing licked by now so it won't hurt to have just one or two. It can be so deceptive and so seductive. I know. I still have these times from time to time myself although they do become less frequent and less severe with time. But I don't think they ever go away totally.

You've been this strong and this noble for this long. Stand up really straight, look at yourself at the mirror and see how lovely you look after so many sober months. See how proud you are of yourself. And swear to yourself that you won't let anything take that away.

You're strong. You can get through this. It won't last too long - maybe a few days at the most. But you'll feel so great after you beat it.

Love to you,
Mags

[lorisunshine]

Heavenly, don't do it. You don't really need it. I have only been 40 days AF today but I am petrified of that one drink as I know where it will lead me.
You have done so well for you and you have my respect.
Hugs
Lori

[Heavenly]

Hi, thought I would check in...even though some people (my relatives ) don't like me to....found a website that kind of explains a bit why I want to have another drink ...

Relapse Prevention- Dangerous Symptoms and Signs of Drug and Alcohol Addiction Relapse Warning List

I hope this links to it...well, have been having a LOT of stress and being monitored (unwanted) of my general behaviour not even drinking behaviour so...very stressed....

will go hibernate soon...

Thanks for support
Heavenly

[Gyco]

yo heaven my turn to party dont even no what id drink but i use to drink almost nything,bon fire tont everyone but me wlldrink,its been lk tht for 8 months i dont no what to do but come here AND BS MY WAY TO HAV 1 HAHAHA IT WOOD BE MORE THN THT STAY TUNED FOR LATR GYCO

[bestlifeldms]

Oh my! Had me worried there for a minute! Whew! Wow! 15 mos. that is awsome! If I had one drink it would soon become one pint, black outs, etc. No way! I can't drink! This too shall pass!

Hugs, Best

[retteacher]

Heavenly:

I haven't got nearly as much AF time as you have, but the only thing I wanted to add is that I know I would never have only 1 or 2. That just isn't possible for me. I absolutely must honor my AF committment, because any AL in my system would likely lead to a binge.

Also, I do think that (as Beck said) it takes a lot for a long-time abstainer to express his/her struggles. However, that's why MWO is here. We have to be up-front w/how we're feeling or this program won't work.

Good luck.

Mary

[about time too]

Heavenly,
I suppose at any stage we are at risk of deluding ourselves that we either werent too bad, or we have changed.. our ability to delude ourselves is monumental (well, mine is).

What I have found is that I have found a streak of honesty that i hang onto like grim death.. its a spot of honesty in which I know that the risk of just one drink is a risk not worth taking.

I'm not saying that what is for me is for everyone, but I am saying that when we are honest with ourselves, we know what to do.

Good luck.