I don't know why

[Mags]

I don't know why this is such a difficult time for me. This should be such a happy time. My teaching is almost over, and I am winding down for the semester, though that means shitloads of papers to grade and final exams to make up.

This should not be a difficult time. I have been sober for a few years and love my sobriety. Why is it still hard sometimes? I honestly don't know. Sometimes the beast just keeps trying. I can't let him do that. I won't and I'll be OK.

I'm sorry to bother you all. But you are my friends and who else can I talk to? The beast is at my door but I won't open it. I will not open it.

Thanks for listening..........

[greeneyes]

Aw my dear Mags..... Three years is so fabulous. For many, it took a lot longer to get to the point of looking for help and as my addiction therapist says, it took a long time to get here and it will take a long time to get out. Hubby said someone relapsed after 8 years. I guess you always have to have BGP on and don't answer the door, unless it's me.

[Cinders]

Mags,

I have found that my body and mind do not react to stress while in the midst of the stressors. I tend to fall apart afterwards.

You are undergoing the same phenomenon right now. You are finally about to kick back and relax and ski naked for a while and NOW your body and mind are reacting to it.

Of course, we all know The Beast lurks around at every opportunity to strike.

No worries. You can kick him to the curb!!

Love ya,
Cindi

[greeneyes]

OK, Cindi... I had to LOL at ski naked. May be in my tag line after I dig out of the hole. Move from BGP to I SKI NAKED!

[tlrgs]

hi there..mags..you did the right thing by writing and questioning yourself. very good way to control your thoughts and i dont think al will be bothering you at all .keep coming back . peace and god bless

[Determinatrix]

Cheering you on, Mags.
Stay vigilant.

Dx

[luCKy]

Breathe mags- don't forget to breathe. You will be fine. I have faith in you.

[stollies1]

I'm glad you wrote this Mags..
I'm 19 months AF now but sometimes the beast comes to my door too.
Its nice to know you can come here and just say it out loud, don't ya think?
Love to all
Victoria xxooxx

[Captnjack]

Mags hang in this difficult time shall pass
hey always do this cuddlle yourself I mean wrap yourself in your self . for a bit

love youre self

danny

[southernbelle47]

You Mags!

Great job!
You're probably tired and need some time to recover from the rush!
Do you have plans to look forward to ?
It is good to rest, but in our hurry up world, it's hard to just stop and have time on our hands.

Pamper yourself....spa day....read a good book...excerise....plant something.....get outside and walk.
As I sat outside this morning , I read from Psalms that "God has put my feet in His nice quiet garden to speak sweetly to me."
It's my job to "be still" and listen. Try it!

Nancy