Predicting alcoholism!

[ChickenNumber3]

Something i find deeply unsettling is that a clairvoyant I went to about 7 years ago (prompted to by a friend), basically informed me that I would one day have a battle with the "demon drink".

At the time I found that almost unbeleivable and almost laughable! At the time I would drink socially,would get drunk occasionally,but was going through life without this terrible need for it! Rarely thought of it infact..didn't care one way or the other if I drank or not!

Now it nearly consumes me!!!

I've always been someone who is open to alternatives, but I've also always beleived that we are ultimately the masters of our own destiny..just because someone sees a 'potential' in our future,doesn't mean we have to let that happen.

But,WOW, here I am.......!!!
Go figure,
Chicken

[Zeta]

I believe intuitives can sense probable futures. Nobody can truly predict the future with 100 percent accuracy because the future is not fixed but a series of probabilities. What a good intuitive does is zone in on the probable future that is most strong given your current aura or energy (that they are picking up on). The odds become much better when this happens.

Of course, with free will, we can ALWAYS change the course of our current path. We are all capable of changing our futures merely based on our choices moment-by-moment. Easier said than done, eh?

[Theme2be]

I completely understand, my friend.

I speak often of how it seems like yesterday that I was the one sent down to the wine cellar to pick out the wine for the event and then
It hit hard.
Lost jobs, lost friends, homeless, lifeless and seemingly unlovable, unless I met you at a bar.

I had a surgery and I have often thought a devil entered in, because this is not me.
I have friends of many years ask me what happened? They knew me from before and I was not recognizable.

Someday, when I have enough soberiety I plan to address the nations.
Literally.
I am ired that anyone such as myself goes through this hell and is judged and ignored as tho they are less than.

It is a terrible disorder .

You, my Chicken are beautiful nevertheless.

Always here~

[Cinders]

Chicken,

That is amazing.

Sometimes I consider my past and realize I have been an alcoholic most of my life but it wasn't until the last 3 or 4 years it got really horrendous.

It would never have occurred to me that I was an alcoholic because I drank 3 - 5 glasses of wine a night. It didn't cause me any issues at work and I didn't wake up hung over. I just didn't consider it a problem.

After my gastric bypass, when I started drinking again, it became a true nightmare. I ended up drinking a fifth to two fifths of vodka a day!! Of course at that level, especially with gastric bypass, every aspect of my life was touched by my addiction.

When I came to MWO, I was hoping to get back down to the 3 -5 glasses of wine/day. It simply cannot be for me.

So, I am AF but much happier today about being AF than I ever thought I would be.

In a very strange way, becoming an alcoholic has been good for me. I could not understand my children's drinking at all. It was, "why do they have to drink so much?"

Now I understand them and they understand me.

My daughter has been AF for over a year now but she still struggles. My son still drinks.

I am praying that my sobriety will show both of them that they can do it, too.

Cindi

[Theme2be]

Oh, I forgot to mention that prior to my moving here to Vegas I was involved in a community.

I traded Massage Therapy for "readings".
One of the beautiful souls I met prior to moving here kept having her glass of water fall out of her hand and she kept interpreting this as my working with "liquid".
I thought that meant that maybe I would be a bar tender.
Well, LOL...hello.

I now understand that she did her best and that it was in my path to battle the bottle.

I loathe this disability.

[sooty]

Chicken that is so strange - I wonder if the clairvoyant was giving you a warning of the dangers ahead - after all just because it was predicted doesn't mean that it has to come true!
Anyway hope that you're keeping strong - have a good weekend
Sooty

[ChickenNumber3]

Hello All!

Thanks for your insightful responses! In a way I am frustrated with myself because,if I am master of my own destiny,then how is it that being forewarned did not therefore make me forearmed?
Sooty -thanks for the kind words!
Cinders-I hope you and your family rise above this thing together..you are setting a great example.My kids are 4 & 2 years,I am hoping to beat this before it leaves any lasting impression on them...but who can say?

Theme- The worst thing is I feel disappointed in myself that I was not strong enough to overcome it. I should not have fallen beneath its spell! Which is one of the reasons why I don't have medications to fight it..because I feel that i SHOULD be strong enough to beat it..but now I just don't know!!Guess I will see how I go.

When I think about it I have an 'addictive' personality..for example,in my late teens I beame anorexic....obessessing about food..or the lack of it and body image as much as I seem to now about alcohol! Perhaps I have just exchanged one 'demon' for another!!

Zeta- I do frimly believe in free-will and that destiny is never fixed,so I WILL change this around,before it hurts my family!!(If it hasn't already!)
I beat anorexia..I'll beat this devil too!!!
Nuff said!

Chicken

[Gold]

Hi ChickenNumber3,

I agree with Zeta there exists probable futures and this clairvoyant 'read' your aura and presented you with one possiblity, which was perhaps already an unexpressed concern for you. Personally I do not think it was right of this person to state what he or she did as de facto, once said!

I'm always fascinated by where words come from, I believe they are far more powerful than we give them credit for. The etymology of addiction; and alcoholism is but an addiction to alcohol, is a giving over or surrender to (something). So it follows in a way perhaps that we give our power and authority to something outside of ourselves, there are many ways to do this and alcohol and anorexia are perhaps just examples, albeit very harmful ones.

Rather than our impetus, our power, coming from our soul; we allow ourselves to be influenced by other minds (e.g. government, teachers, doctors, family etc) and when perhaps we feel hopeless/powerless as a result, we turn to other things, surrendering our power to those things rather than drawing upon our own resources.

These are just my random thoughts

Nothing is ever set in stone, and everthing happens for a reason.

[sooty]

Well said Chicken - and dont describe yourself as an addictive personality - you are much more than that. You are a brave person who has overcome great challenge with the anorexia and you will rise to meet this challenge also.
Have a good saturday, hope to talk later
Sooty

[Gyco]

hi chicken 3,interesting,ive never been to a fortune teller,i beleive since coming back from treatment tho,scientists have proven,alcoholism runs in the family,i always thot it was normal to drink,everyone did it,or most people anyways,at the end of my stay,we were fortunate to watch a video,very expensive video,most couldnt own it,or afford it,i dont even think the public are aware of it,drinking and abusing are a money maker,even with treatment centers the success rate i beleive is low,i recently had surgery,very interesting,1st i had to have an epidural,cause i have a neck and spine injury,that froze me from the waist down,and then some hahaha,couldnt feel a thing,then they asked if i wanted something more to relax me,at that point i said i dont feel nothing any ways.they give me a little bit of something else,from xactly 9am to 940 am i dont recall nothing,matter a fact,i asked if the procedure was over,that is also what the film we seen in treatment stressed on Al and Drug addiction,does the same or has the same affect as a anesthetic,if given to much ,it will kill you.doesnt the scenario sound familiar. ? .that is the length of my alcoholism,my dear the struggle never ends,acceptance that your different is the key,i wish you well gyco