well I just sent this song to a multitude of people and it will be interesting to see their response.. I have not told anyone about this website, I have only been here a short while, about a week, from be AF to in the midst of a binge brought on by back pain, it is a viscous cycle, and one that i need to get out of..If I only had the courage, I am like the tin man, no courage at all, which is sickening in it own right.. to just break on thru to the other side would be such a delight. it is like I want to keep punishing myself. I know what the outcome will be but I do it regardless, and I know that the tail is wagging the dog, doesn't anyone else see, I keep saying,, here I am do something, maybe this song will give me a response. I told my husband this morning at 5:00 am, just tell me what to do and I will do it. He got the heating pad told me to go lay down plugged it in and told me to feel better.. now what are you supposed to do with that,, I then had three oj's and vodka to take away the pain.. and then I went to work,,I am scared to death to go home..sooner or later it's going to bite me..
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