Hi I'm a Newbie

welcome whitestar and chardonay, I am a fellow Brit - our numbers seem to be rising daily! (must be something to do with the lousy weather:\ )

I'm sorry that you have both fallen off the wagon recently, but it is great that you have turned up here, there are many helping hands to get you back on. I found this site a few days ago and have been feeling much better for all the support. I hope you also can get the boost you need to give it a real go.

I have also been trying to get as many of the meds here as I can - not done too well and I think I will go to the inhouse pharmacy website michelle recommended. I'm going to start abstaining tomorrow anyway as was my original plan. I'm hoping to abstain for a month and then try moderation. Starting to feel scared of the enormity of my task, but quitting can't be as bad as how I feel the morning after the night before.

keep in touch and best wishes for a successful MWO.

By the way, well done Michelle on your third day and don't chew that arm off, you might need it one day!

Hi, I'm a Newbie too. (1st posting, hope I'm doing this right)
I downloaded the book 2 weeks ago after a really long drunk weekend. Read the book, great book, like reading my life story. I started the program that day, note to anyone else starting, wait until you have supps and CD's. It is really hard to start without. Lots of aches and brain pains. I am working on moderation and I would like to hear from beautifulwreck or anyone else working the program without Topamax. I come from a long line of alternative healthcare folks so RX is not for me. I am doing the supps and CD like I should, and my drinking is way way down, but still having trouble fighting my "drinking queues". My friend said give the CD's more time, but any suggestions would be good?

Hey FRMCA

I just sent you an e-mail to your box....
Hope the info helps
Best
Beauty

Hi everyone!

Hope you are all ok. Well, this was my 4th morning of waking up minus the fuzz which I have patted myself on the back for. Yesterday was awful, really, really hard but I went to bed at 9.30 so as to get it over with as quick as possible, slept quite well, dreamed of taking big swigs out of a huge Vodka bottle...lol! Thankfully just a dream.

My Topa AND book arrived this morning so have been walking around with renewed energy today (just what I needed after yesterday...divine intervention??) Am just bursting with motivation and enthusiasm so am sending some to all of you in the hope it rubs off a little.

My mum phoned me last night at 9.30 so was already in bed and the first thing she asked was whether I was sober! Hahaha, had to laugh (to myself of course), kinda says it all. I inwardly glowed as I told her I was.

Another thing, regarding the social outings/being offered a drink thing- I was at a cosmetics party recently when the woman sitting next to me was asked whether she wanted a glass of wine, she replied "No, thanks. If I have one I'll want more so I don't drink." It really stuck in my head as it was direct, frank and said without any stigma and was taken without any comment. Just something I wanted to share!!
(God, I'm a LONG way off from putting myself in a social situation where there's alcohol, think it'll take a while!)

Anyway you lovely people, have a good day and thanks for the support, I couldn't do it without every one of you (well, I might be able to but you know what I mean!)

Michelle.

Hi Michelle,

Quite the comment isn't it and at a place you would least expect to hear it! Wow, that is so me, is all I can say. Good for her to except it and to be so open about it. Wouldn't you have loved to have spoken with her about that? This is just such a private and personal issue...

I'm so glad Mr. Postman made you happy today!ol
Enjoy the book, you will find strenght and see alot of yourself in there I am sure! Plus the topa will take some of the edge off for you I hope...and give you some of the extra will power and strenght that this journey takes!

Have a great day (or evening for you as it maybe..)
All my Best,
Tammie

ps....start with 25 mg of topa a day for 1 week then go up to 50mg of topa per day...wanted to add that incase you didn't get that far in the book yet!

Hi L

Great to hear from another brit! Have just ordered the book, managed to get it from amazon.co.uk. Have made a doctors app for next Wednesday to see if I can get Topa on script, she already knows my history so fingers crossed otherwise I will order on line. Thanks for the support
Whitestar

Hi everyone, I'm new and on day 3. Am going cold turkey at the moment. Have not received the book yet and was wondering what are the side effects of the topa? I have seen mention of some when reading the threads. Have also to get the Kudzu. Always find the first week or so not too bad, its when the memory of the hangovers and the feeling of self disgust fades that I fall off the wagon. Thats why I have been leaving that kind of stuff in reserve.

Really enjoy reading about all of you, it has been so helpful.


Good luck

Rustop

Hi Rustop:

I started on Topa a week ago today- 25 mg. Really have had no side effects @ all except maybe being tired. Do not know if the tiredness is from the topa or from the Calmes Forte but I can live with it. I went up to 50 mg today and was immediately exhausted. That is still ok with me, as I am getting deep REM sleep @ night which I think I lacked for years. Also, being tired keeps me from a run to the store for wine, which is a really good thing! I have not had any alcohol since starting the topa so don't know if it will make me stop drinking sooner as it has many on the boards. Hope this is helpful info. All the best...

Hi, i dont dont know what to say but i think i need help.......... i cant help myself, i drink......... all the time....and i hide it from my friends, i go to work everyday and its not easy but its time to change. i have to do this........cant type right now

well you're in the right place! you'll find so much support here,you don't have to post anything yourself if you don't feel up to it,just keep reading and it'll get better,promise! jenny.take care