Not in control

Sav, why not join us?! We are all on the same journey here to help ourselves. Best of luck. Miss Layla

Kristen, Skip & Kirky,
Hi, guys. I posted my post, and then read this thread. It's amazing how we are able to be successful, respected, and yet find the time and have the need for the buzz.
Thanks for sharing, its very helpful to see my stroy written by another. I'm not alone....
Peggy

Peggy, oh no your not. Gabby

i am on day 7 of topamax now and still drinking, yikes. i have cut down alot however. has enyone else taken it and kept drinking at the same time or am i a freak? i can not seem to cut the desire to drink enough to stop even though i know i really need to do that. it is such a damm curse!!!
JB

Hi JB,
No, I am a freak right along with ya! Crazy I tell ya! What's wrong with us?

needchange,
how long have you been on the topa. has it helped at all? what dosage are you taking?
JB

Peggy, JB and NeedChange;

I agree with Gabby, you're NOT freaks! Welcome to the family. As a matter of fact you should be proud of yourselves for taking the first step and realizing that you need help....

I am looking forward to reading your future posts.

Brandy

Hi JB and Peggy,

Just posted a tear of the complete story of me on a different thread and am an emotional wreck.

Peggy, thanks for your support.

JB, wow, LOL. I'm not good on the details. As a matter of fact, just went and purchashed 7 of those pill dividers so that I can put the supps and topamax into morn/mid-morn/lunch/dinner/bed only once a week for the whole week. As far as the dosage goes...I was up to 100mg then realized I was running out and had to cut back because (I'm getting them over the internet and last time it took about 10 daysfor them to deliver) I had to reorder and was hoping not to completely run out before the next supp. came. But, right before I cut back, I was noticing I wasn't drinking as much.

I probably shouldn't be playing doctor, but I am so ashamed about my addiction (This is a first, admitting this. Known it deep inside). I don't know, the first order came through fine, if I just plan a little better, follow the book...I don't know...

My thoughts are with you.

BRANDY! Thank you for YOUR kind words and support!

Topa, Dopa!

I've been on the topa for a couple of months now...up to 150mgs...I am still drinking although not as much as before but more than I would like. I am over all happy with where I am at at this point but still not where I want to be. The big problem with me it ME. It my lack of willpower and I know it. It it a habit that needs to be broken and I know it. It is a desire that needs to go away and I know it. I am taking all of the supps. I feel better than I've felt in years. I just can't for some reason just muster up the willpower and strength to just stop. Well, hubby just interupped my train of thought so I guess I'll just leave it at that.

Kat