Please help answer some questions

I stumbled onto this site yesterday and it seems like what I have been looking for to help me get over this silly problem that I have created for myself.

As much as I want to get in control of my drinking it seems as though I am almost cutting off ties with my best friend. Does that make any sense? Maybe I have gone to far off the deep end and am beyond help. :\ I also have no idea what I would do with those hours in the evening that I have carefully calculated my drinking to cover. However, it would be nice to wake up EVERY morning and be clear on what happened the night before.

I know that my drinking is bad for me and I know that I am setting a horrible example for my kids. I know my drinking makes it nearly impossible for me loose the extra pounds I have put on as a result of aforementioned drinking. So if I know all this, why do I have so much anxiety about giving it up?

Like I said, maybe I am to far gone, but if anyone can remotely relate to my situation I would appreciate some insight.

Thanks in advance!!

I can really relate to that, being a newbie on this site too. How about you take a deep breath, buy the book, cd's etc and have a go. It won't harm you and maybe do some good.

Seems like there are a few newbies on this site over the week or so I have visited so maybe we can all help each other? With some major help from the more experienced ones. I dunno ... I feel really optimisitic about it.

First Friday night without being pished, btw. But now, it is after 11:30pm where I am and off to bed...

Ooooh. Just set up the family music system in my bedroom so I can listen to the tapes all night and have my bedroom to listen to them tomorrow too. That was my big decision today.

Hi Julie, and welcome. I can totally relate to feeling like your saying goodby to an old friend, maybe a best one...
It's so hard to imagine a life without it. Besides, it's everywhere you look, in our society. That's partly why I've chosen moderation, besides the fact that I'm not ready to change all the "people(my Hubby-mainly,and family), places & things in my life"... what a joke I got out of that statement!!
Don't know if you're familiar with AA(no offence intended- to anyone....), but that's just not feasable in my reality... at least not in this life.
I think that's the beauty of this program, you can pretty much "dial" it in to yourself, to a certain degree. Give it a shot. It's the best thing I've found,....since sex, chocolate, & alcohol!! Now I can still enjoy all of the above!!LOL:rollin

Judie - You just crack me the hell up. You always give me a chuckle and I SO appreciate it!:rollin :rollin

Welcome Julie
There is nothing to be nerovus about. We all have similar problems and difficulty dealing with the time left open now because we are not drinking. I am still quite new to the program as well. I bought the book,cd's,supps but have not taken topomax. I will be finishing a month of abs at the end of May.I did slip once and drink wine but not a huge amount.I could never have imagined going that long before.Sometimes the evening are difficult but I try to put myself to bed as early as possible. The mornings are so much better!!!
Good Luck and I look foward to your posts. The boards and this site are also a big help.
I have also read and enjoyed your posts Wombat...../Welcome!!!!!
Janet